Do they just blow *at* your eyes really hard or do they actually poke something into your eye? Either way, it does sound kind of scary. But I guess it's not as scary as going blind. I hope you can get a test that won't be as freaky but, if you can't, please do whatever you must to get yourself proper treatment. You see the world in such a unique way - the world would be the lesser without your unique vision. If there's anything I can do, let me know. I'd be tempted to give you one of my eyes if such a thing were possible.