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[teaberryblue]

i am sleepy. i don't feel really shitty though, just sleepy. not falldown tired, not migrainey, and not the way i feel at night when i'm up too late.

last night wasn't really cathartic but growing up is hard. i thin i'm doing a pretty good job of being a grownup, i just have to figure out what grownup i want to be. i have a real job, i work my butt off, but i feel like i am accomplishing little or nothing. i'm not writing. all i'm doing is marking time and it seems like a waste because if i were spending this time trying to make something then i would have more time to continue to do it. making things is good. is there any point to sitting in a decent job and just counting the days and the cash n my bank account until i have enough money to support myself while i try to write for a living? why shouldn't i just do it now?

i hate feeling like i'm not getting anything done.

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Re: wow

[keladry.livejournal.com]

I really like your texts, tea! "brazen angels" is so, so GOOD!

I'd really like to read that Cinderella book, it sounds so interesting... (Gender identity in "Cinderella"?) The one with the kid whose mother thinks he's a superhero sounds like a book I'd like to read, too. Hell, they all sound like books I'd like to read!

Sidenote: You really ARE very much influenced by Shakespeare, aren't you? Taming of the shrew, Hamlet...

Re: wow

[zia-narratora.livejournal.com]

'm obsessed with shakespeare. i've been reading shakespeare since i was seven and studying shakespeare since i was ten. besides the 2 stories i mentioned there, i also wrote a play that is supposedly will shakespeare's first play that he wrote at age thirteen (it's 80 pages of rhyming couplets called "cousin lucentio's wedding") and a few other shorter projects.

tea