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[teaberryblue]

i am sleepy. i don't feel really shitty though, just sleepy. not falldown tired, not migrainey, and not the way i feel at night when i'm up too late.

last night wasn't really cathartic but growing up is hard. i thin i'm doing a pretty good job of being a grownup, i just have to figure out what grownup i want to be. i have a real job, i work my butt off, but i feel like i am accomplishing little or nothing. i'm not writing. all i'm doing is marking time and it seems like a waste because if i were spending this time trying to make something then i would have more time to continue to do it. making things is good. is there any point to sitting in a decent job and just counting the days and the cash n my bank account until i have enough money to support myself while i try to write for a living? why shouldn't i just do it now?

i hate feeling like i'm not getting anything done.

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[zia-narratora.livejournal.com]

'm obsessed with shakespeare. i've been reading shakespeare since i was seven and studying shakespeare since i was ten. besides the 2 stories i mentioned there, i also wrote a play that is supposedly will shakespeare's first play that he wrote at age thirteen (it's 80 pages of rhyming couplets called "cousin lucentio's wedding") and a few other shorter projects.

tea